One month later

Hello all,

It has been one month now since dad passed. I didn't know how I was going to do today. Was I going to be filled with sadness? Would I overcompensate and try to be happier than normal? I just didn't know until the day started.

I began the day in my chair. I watched the clock roll from 11:59 PM to 12:00 AM. It was the 7th of April now. Now what? I went to bed and thought I would address the day in the morning.

As the day went on, I kept myself busy. I have been working with Steve on a WebLogic server problem. That activity kept me busy for most of the day. In the afternoon, I had a mandatory team meeting for IBM.

I made it through most of the day without crying much. When I sat down in my chair tonight to write this, it started to hit me. I have a dad's chair. Jen sits on the couch and I sit in my recliner. As I rocked in my chair I thought about dad’s chair at home and what he is doing in Heaven. Is he playing golf every day? What are the rules in Heaven? Can he come down and check on us whenever he wants or can he only visit every once in a while? Just between you and me, I think he can pop in and visit anytime he wants. I have even put a chair on the deck for him to sit and watch the kids play this summer. I hope he stops by from time to time.

Well Dad, I know you are reading this from Heaven. I know you are in a better place now. I want you to know that we all miss you very much and think about you often.

Good night,

-Andy