Missing you Dad

Dad,

Missing you is the hardest challenge I cope with every day. You were my best friend. You were always there for me to call when I needed a break from work. I loved to hear about your golf game and how it was "finally" coming around. You always had a way of making me feel like things would be alright if I just gave it a little more time. When I was scared about being a dad, you helped to calm my fears. Your words of encouragement turned my fears into confidence. You always knew I could accomplish anything I committed myself to.

I need a pep talk Dad. You see, these last few months have been very hard on me. I was alright during the summer. I was distracted by moving out of the old house and into the new one. There were always places to go and people to meet in the neighborhood. As the fall leaves start to fall, so do I. I do not have the distractions I once enjoyed. All I have left to do is sit and think about what is missing -- you. One author I read states losing a father is like waking up one morning and having a mountain disappear from your view. You were a constant in my life for 31 years and now I am trying to recover from having you ripped from my life. The wound is still fresh. It stings more some days than others, but the ache is persistent.

I know that you would not want me to feel sorry for myself. You would want me to go on and enjoy my family as you enjoyed spending time with mom, Danna, Nic and I. I know that is why you told me to watch over the family that day. It was you telling me that life has to go on. I may hate it, but life has to go on.

I know that you can read this from Heaven, so I thought I would let you know that we all are coping the best we can. I know you drop by from time to time. Ali and Zac tell me so. After playing upstairs, they will run downstairs and rush to tell Jennifer and I that they had so much fun playing with Grandpa just then. I smile at my kids and give them a hug and let them know that their Grandpa loves them very much. Thanks for dropping by Dad. It is nice to know that you are watching over the family.

Well, I've been crying long enough now. I'll let you get back to doing whatever you do in Heaven.

I love you Dad!

Your son,
-Andy